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Self-Absorbed Post

2012-02-10T21:53:00.001-05:00

Heya!
So, nothing really up. Been busy with work/school like mad crazy. Had a French exam on Thursday, which I do not feel happy about one bit. :( *sigh* Then have a Stats exam next Thursday and a Philosophy exam Monday after that. FML. Well good news is... SPRING BREAK is super soon, 2 weeks from today! I really cannot wait to go home. I miss my fam, and my baby chihuahua of course. I do not know how I live without her. But I miss her so much!! <3

I also signed a contract for housing next year! Northwood II Apartments. They're really nice. Have a bedroom, living room, bathroom, and kitchen!! Much bigger than average dorm. Um, it's also a single.. so no dealing with a demon roommate like I currently am. I think I will be happy there. :)

So I was on twitter earlier (@haleighbavol) And I seen someone I used to go to high school with, So I totally creeped on their page and their website was a link to YouTube account. I mean first thought was it's probably a bunch of mindless dumb videos, but then I seen it's ALL make-up tutorials and stuff! Really cool. And I mean there's hundreds! I'm not that dedicated hahah. But wow, pretty interesting. Maybe I should start making videos... idk about what.. I can do makeup halfway decent.. and I also know a couple hairstyles... we'll see. Maybe when I have my own apartment, coz it would be totally weird making videos while my roommate is sitting here lmao!

And I also cannot get over how excited I am for this SUMMER! I really hope I get to go to Singapore.. I will be turning in all my forms by next week... had to find a new "recommendation" coz I can NEVER get in touch with the person I was going to use in the first place :p Oh well, it's fairly short. But REALLY MAD EXCITED.

Yesterday at dinner.. I went with my friend from down the hall and he was asking about my love life sort of. My initial response is like omg what love life #foreveralone. But like then I ended up talking for about an hour hahahah. So remember the hot marine I was in love with from back in the day, James? Well his "girlfriend" or whatever the hell he calls her is PREGNANT! I remember him telling me they didn't even talk, they were over and all this shit... now he has a baby on the way. So GLAD I didn't waste my time on him coz he would have been having a baby behind my back wtf. Um I also talked about my co-worker... which IDEK why I like him, I just do.. it's weird. Like I feel that he totally isn't into me :( But damnnnit lmao. Oh well, shouldn't get caught up in someone like this. Then theres president of CR, who is ridiculously hot but has a girlfriend. We hung out the other night, and I mean I can't HELP but flirt with him haha, so like I was and he flirts with me too.... and like ugh. Too bad he's taken haha.. There's this other guy from college republicans also, Matt... Like at this meeting, I noticed him checking me out haha, like the whole damn time... Later that night when I got home.. I check facebook and he requested to be my friend, so he MUST HAVE asked who I was :) hmmm.. He's really cute...and a republican, major bonus in Ann Arbor. And there's ALSO this guy from my philosophy class, I mean he's really cool and shit, but I don't feel a connection with him in any way... but he always wants to go out for dinner and lunch with me.. I mean he obviously like really likes me.. but I don't like him like that.. I think he's just cool to talk to and be FRIENDS with. I'm not intentionally friend-zoning.. I can't help it if I don't like him.

Well, as the title says this post is a self-absorbed post coz I had a mini photo-shoot :) Enjoy.

I should be at Mike's party right now, So I guess I will go! Make this horrible week better by getting retardedly drunk ;) Have a good night!

Singapore

2012-02-04T13:38:00.001-05:00

SINGAPORE it is. That is where I will be spending the majority of my summer. Jealous right? lah... I would be. It's absolutely beautiful. It's an island, 80-90 degrees all year round. I will also spend 6 days going to Malaysia and Thailand. Awesome right? Here are so awesome pictures to keep me motivated until the summer.

Okay, I'm MAD EXCITED!!!! lah. Just finished doing everything I need to do, talking about forms for this internship By next Wednesday I will have EVERYTHING complete and turned in... OMG like uh... I've never traveled before. I just completed all of the papers for getting a passport, I will go turn it in, (have to do it in person) wen I go home for spring break in a couple of weeks.

Okie besides being extremely happy about all of this what else is new?! Well kind of a lot. I have been having such a hard time in Stats 250.. I'm not a math person I guess lol. But I got 18/30 on the first exam!!! I was like fuck this shit... but it's to late to drop classes lmao... so I was standing at a bus stop and seen an ad, like almost MADE for me that said free stats 250 tutoring!! like wtf I need this person in my life. I emailed him set up a date for tutoring and omg Everything made so much more sense lol. He helped me go through my old homework and my new homework... Like thank god I happened to see that ad lol. And plus he's pretty damn cute so bonus for me. hahah ;)

And omg another thing! So my roommate Karen have been getting along great.. but she's a New Yorker.. and they are all selfish, self-absorbed, and rude. It's a true fact... well people from the city. lol... but okay think about that... so WHO KNOWS WHY... but she has about 872389749838328394 alarm clocks... and she sets them retardedly early.. like 6 am. And not only are there a million, but they go off every 2 minutes.... not even lieing... most people have them go off every ten min. but no... 2 MIN! wtf.

So I made a status on Facebook saying something like omg been up since 6 am cause 9487487489 alarms go off every second lol. I mean I wasn't trying to be mean.. because I know people aren't as awesome as me and cannot wake up to save their lives in the morning. I mean it's annoying for me but so what. I mean once I get woken up,. IM UP! I cannot sleep through noise or light or noise every two minutes, lol.

But she totally took it extremely offensive and was like omg why are talking about me on facebook?! I was like dude no one on my friends-list fucking cares iif you wake me up. I wasn't talking shit or nothing. You know? So then she's just pissed and I'm like oh fucking well..... But that wasn't the end. This bitch TOTALLY pissed me off beyond belief. So, it was Thursday night, I went to bed at around midnight because I have early class on Friday's (don't know why I do this to myself).. But she comes in the bedroom at 2 AM and turns the light on and making noise OBVIOUSLY super loud, and doing who fucking knows.. I literally got up and gave her a dafuq u doin? look.. she was a total bitch that night.. .and thats not all.

So in the morning I mean I wake up way earlier than her, she sets a fucking alarm at 6 am on a FRIDAY?!?!? wtf. and wouldn't turn it off.... I had to GET UP and turn her shit off I was soo pissed. Then her phone alarm was going off all morning cause I cant turn that one off... But she didn't turn it off until after I woke up.. I was really on the edge of punching her in the face. I mean people don't realize that I am a total bitch once you get on my bad side. So when I get up she turns off her phone alarm and goes back to sleep because of course she skips class like every day.... stupid spoiled rich bitches. I GO TO CLASS BECAUSE I PAY so much damn money to go here. Like why waste money like that. So I mean I'm not a rude idiot like her, so I'm not gonna turn the light on and slam everything when she's sleeping. So immature, didn't think I would deal with that at a university.

So, after I returned from class, of course she's still sleeping.. I mean i'm sick of having a rude/lazy/immature roommate. Why me?! lmao. I mean it's not only that about her that's been driving me crazy.. she has dishes and silverware left from before Christmas break left in our bathroom sink.. DISGUSTING.. They are still there.. it's so nasty. And ALSO.. I cannot do homework in the room because she constantly has music playing super loud and I cannot even focus, I ALWAYS use headphones so I'm not rude. She is so inconsiderate.

So basically I'm living with a mega bitch. LOL. I mean I'm sure I have annoying habits, but at least I'm clean, organized, and keep my shit to myself. Even when I go out and party I stay at someones place cause I KNOW im a loud obnoxious bimbo when I'm drunk af, lol..

But that's enough with the venting.. just super annoyed. Let's hope this week gets better cause it sure as hell cannot get worse, leh.

You won't believe...

2012-01-29T22:21:00.001-05:00

where I will be this summer. I know last post I blogged about going to China for the summer, but plans have changed and it is UNBELIEVABLE! I am sooooo mad excited!!! LOL :) But no details yet, because I have to get everything set in stone, and arrangements made, but wow. You won't believe it. I am way excited!
The only news I am going to spill is that I will in fact be working at an AMAZING law firm. Wow! Like constant smiles! :)

Okie, anyway.. Everything has been alright. Nothing super exciting. Although... lol.. I was reading my horoscope on Friday.. and it was like.. you will be approached by someone who truly likes you and you like them blah blah blah... and I was like whatever.. I'm officially forever alone. But anyways, I was sitting in the Stanley House computer lab working on filling out papers for my internship and guess who comes up out of fucking no where?! My total crush, who in fact is my co-worker whom I talk about all the time in other blog posts.. haha COINCIDENCE or not?! lol ;) He's pretty cute.. but I thought that was funny... cause I mean I have hardly seen him this semester. lol.

Um, onto more exciting news... omg so I was walking home from the gym.. and as I approached the edge of the parking lot, next to the bus stop a raccoon came out of no where and was walking towards me. I was like wtf... and I was terribly scared and like "omg its going to attack me no?!" and everyone at the bus stop is like omg run it's got rabies! lol. I mean I was scared, I went and hid behind a guy lol. But then I noticed the poor raccoon was limping, and he wasn't being vicious he was just scared! AWWW... I didn't really know what to do, so I mean I was just walking to the door to my building and as I am closing it behind me I notice the raccoon is trying to come in with me! I'm like oh shit, I will get in so much trouble if I let this inside lmao. So I hurry and close it, and he starts scratching on the door and I kneel down and tell him I am incredibly sorry.

By the time I got to my room, on the dreaded 4th floor, I couldn't shake the poor raccoon from my thoughts. I just felt like a HORRIBLE person for just leaving him. So I told my hall-mate and we grabbed some crackers and went outside. We seriously stayed outside for like an hour or so just keeping him company. It was obvious his back leg was broken, and I felt so bad. He couldn't even climb a mere curb! :(

And I sat down on the curb, and he nestled onto my leg, it was soo sweet. He ate a bunch of crackers, but I was freezing by this piont and I'm liek fuckkkk I got shit to do and places to be, you know?! :p So A bus driver comes out and he's like dafuq, lmao. I was like dude I don't know what to do... so he called a number that helps wild animals, the poor raccoon got picked up and will hopefully be helped with his broken leg and set free again!

Ah, I feel so much better about myself now, lah! LOL I am such an animal lover.

Mermaid Hair

2012-01-22T00:17:00.002-05:00

Heya
A couple of posts back I blogged about how I bought tons of new hair products and all these cool buys from eBay, remember?! Well, I finally have received everything, it's a long shipment all the way from China, HA! But I have been using all of these hair products and I must say it has done WONDERS for my hair! It's extremely soft, strong, silky, smooth, and smells great! lah!

Okie! Here's the full bundle of everything I bought! It's KAO Essential Damage Care, and I LOVEEEE LOVE LOVE LOVE it!!! They're wonderful!

This is the Shampoo and Conditioner! This was the first package I received, fairly quick too, so I have been using them for a while. They are very potent, unlike American brands, so it only requires about a dime size to do all of my hair, and I mean I have fucking LONG hair!! I really love it, I usually go through shampoo/conditioner super fast because I have thick, long hair it takes a lot to get it all :p But I really like it, I think it has made my hair much healthier! And they smell ridiculously good! omg! Also, they fooled me.. I don't know if this is an American thing.. but I always think the light colored bottle is conditioner.. I mean it always is with any American brand! lol... But shampoo is actually the light one.

Here are the two "Rinse off" Hair treatments! I actually got the one on the right for free! I was pretty happy.. I just got it a couple of days ago though, so I have used it once.. It's pretty nice from what I can tell. But the REAL DEAL is the one on the left! The intensive hair mask for the bottom 15 inches!!! OMG After using this the first time I could immediately tell. It's absolutely wonderful!! I'm like in love <3

Now this here is amazing! It's a hair lotion that is a leave-on treatment! I really like it because it's quick, easy, and I can use it throughout the day! I usually use it before I go to bed, after I wash my hair and after I finish doing my hair in the morning! It keeps the ends moisturized and strong. It doesn't feel greasy or anything at all either, it just feels soft and healthy!

OMG! This is not KAO Essential damage care brand, but it is amazing as well! It's called Juicy Shower by Liese! It smells soooooo good, RASPBERRIES!!! I really love it :) I use it before straightening my hair, and it just makes it smooth, frizz-free, and super soft! I really like it. It's also pink, major bonus!

40x tongue studs!! Lol, random, I know.. but got a set of 40 for USD$4.00! wtf why so cheap in China?!

My favorite! Although the bars are soo long :( Have to change them for shorter ones, but pretty colors! They are metal and shiny, purple, pink, blue, and black!

Photoshoping my new banner! Yep, you got it! ;)

And on that note, my hair has been looking amazing for a while now! I really feel like it has grown a lot to since I have been using these products! I guess I might actually get mermaid hair!! HA! <3 long hair!!!! Oh and here is me cam-whoring while dressed professionally. Bye!

Intern Haleigh

2012-01-21T19:10:00.002-05:00

Hey!
So as the title says, I'm applying for summer internships! How exciting! I have actually been pondering the idea for a while now, but now I'm sure I want to do this! This biggest problem with deciding to do an internship though is choosing WHERE in the world to go! I mean I can literally choose any place in this world to go intern. It's like soooo much pressure, lah! lol.... As you can probably tell I do not travel.... ever. Which makes me quite sad :( because I am an adventurous type, just too poor! lor.

Okie! So today has been devoted into choosing where to go and creating my Cover Letter and updating my horrible resume, hahaha!

What I am absolutely positive of:

I WANT TO INTERN FOR A LAW FIRM.

Quite obvious though, since I'm going to school to be a lawyer, lah. But I think it would be absolutely incredible to get this kind of experience before getting my degree because I will know EXACTLY what I'm getting myself into. I think I will completely love it to, because I am a law nerd and find it fascinating how the American judicial system works.

So, I have given this some thought of places I could possibly go. I definitely want to go somewhere warm, sunny, and pretty. Somewhere possibly exotic and completely different from the culture I'm used to seeing everyday here in Michigan, la. Maybe southern US, South America, Asia (China, Japan, Singapore), New Zealand! I don't know there are so many choices!! lol. Thinking of working for a law firm the first thought that comes to mind for great experience is Washington DC.. although it's not exotic, but certainly exciting. I love DC, and possibly would love to move there after graduation... but why waste this opportunity going somewhere so close, and also here's some background info... University of Michigan offers a program called Michigan in Washington where you can basically go to school in DC AND INTERN for a whole semester!! I will definitely do that so no! I can't use my probably only intern opportunity at DC... ALSO lol... I'm going to DC this February with College Republicans for like 4 days!!! So I will be there a lot.

Okie.... So Washington DC out of question... maybe. lol :) So now I'm thinking Southern California, Los Angeles, or Florida or Texas!! Somewhere nice in US... I check prices USD$5-6 thousand... Check prices for international internships and it's the same! What is this?! lol... Although I guess for international internships I have to pay for a passport, but that's only USD$100 more... So I have finally decided, I think LOL, on going international. I mean I'm young and have a whole summer, why not travel now?! So I've been looking through some sites and think I want to go to China. I love Chinese culture and everything! It's roughly same price to do the internship and I get to go somewhere for the first and probably last time!! There are two cities that I can go to, either Shanghai or Hong Kong... I think I like Hong Kong more because it's much further south so probably warmer lol! But Shanghai has a little bit more benefits, according to the site... hmm! Tough decision.

Honk Kong on top, Shanghai on bottom... Why do they both have to look so pretty?!
Although, I see water front in the Honk Kong picture, and that might just win my heart over! I wonder how different it will be to work at a law firm in China rather than US?! hm... Oh well! lol :) I may change my mind and do DC though, because I love that city.. maybe Florida beaches... mmm :) hahah! Oh man!

Wish me luck getting accepted to an internship program this summer! And wish me luck on deciding where to go! ;)

Camwhore

2012-01-07T16:02:00.001-05:00

Heya!

Have been incredibly busy these last few days! Classes started last Wednesday, and I totally love them all, although I think there is going to be a HUGE amount of work for most of them... Stats, philosophy, french... leh. But I'm hoping to get all A's so GOODBYE to my social life.

A couple of days ago I went and "flyered" and "chalked" for my sorority! It was quite fun. In Angell Hall on campus, there is a HUGE posting wall... and we're rushing again for the winter semester. So we filled up an entire wall with flyers for my sorority. :) And then we went to all the classrooms in the building and wrote info for our sorority in the top corners of the chalkboard, so hopefully we get an AWESOME winter pledge class! :)
Check out the site for Delta Gamma Phi (DGPhi) here!

OH! Also, there is an EXTREMELY HOT GSI for my philosophy class, omg. HA! Like... he's so hot, I can't not say it. But unfortunately, he's not MY GSI... but I can still admire him during lectures I guess :p

And I have been waking up SOOOO damn early now. I have to Monday-Thursday for the rest of the semester, and it sucks sooo bad. wtf. I have French everyday at 9 am, so I have to wake up at about 7. I do not take SUPER long to get ready, lol... but mind you, I live on North Campus so I have to leave 30 minutes early to get on central on time. Friday I have class at 10, so I wake up at 8, so that's much better. But it feels so strange because I go to bed so damn early now, like midnight or 12:30!!! it's so crazy.. last semester I never got to bed until like 3 am.... but then again I could sleep in forever, no classes until 11:30 :) But now I'm living like a normal person who has a stable job, I guess it's for the best! :p

And JUST A REMINDER, I have been keeping up with my new years resolutions! ;) Well sort of, ha! But yesterday I started going to the NCRB (Rec building) to work out. Worked out for two hours and it was good! Although afterwards I was so exhausted I just went to sleep, lol. Um, I haven't smoked much at all, which is sweet.. and I've been on top of all of my work thus far, which may seem stupid to say since it's only the first week, but I will definitely keep this up! Now.. to work on getting a boyfriend.... mahahaha..

Oh and as I promised, Camwhore pics, :)

xoxo!

MICHIGAN WINS!

2012-01-04T00:09:00.004-05:00

MICHIGAN WINS THE SUGAR BOWL!

Fuck yeah. GO BLUE!

It's great to be a Michigan Wolverine! I LOVE my school.

Grrr

2012-01-01T22:30:00.001-05:00

Hola!

I'm starting this with no general topic to write about, so it may just come out as a stupid, senseless, bimbotic rant. I'm going home (** back to my dorm in Ann Arbor, lol idk why but I refer to it as home!) in three days!! So only little time to spend with my family until... I think February-ish. But to be honest I have been crazy annoyed last couple of days, eh.

So I talked about my awful birth control before.. it's called tri-sprintec, or something in that nature... it's the cheapest generic brand available and its TERRIBLE... wtf. It seriously has caused me to gain soo much weight I feel like a fat whale :( It also doesn't clear skin like most birth control.. it actually makes my skin much worse, I usually don't have pimples much but since I started the pill I have break outs ALLL the fucking time....wtf. NOT FAIR :( I know I should have considered this before getting the worst brand ever... but as soon as my prescription runs out IM DONE with trisprintec bullshit. It seriously makes me have serious mood swing, depression, cry for no reason, horribly bad cramps.... ugh everything the worst possible x's 10. I hate it.

But anyways... I think that may be a cause for me being crazy angry/whatever.. but the littlest things are just driving me crazy.. like my brother who is super annoying sometimes, because I have a low tolerance for children.... -__-

But I really am excited to start the new semester! I have a bunch of new plans that I want to keep up with, including studying realllly hard, going to gym EVERY night, skip snacking, and no smoking. My roommate and hall mate do, so it kinda makes me want to (not cigarettes btw).. and also it's getting expensive and I don't really want to give up $25 every damn week. And smoking is just gross in general because makes teeth yellow and bad for skin. hmph.

On another note I remembered my fear of insects, specifically SPIDERS. Omg I was standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom upstairs, which is quite small. I take towel off my head from drying my hair, getting ready to blow dry and a HUMONGOUS spider is slowly coming down a web. Like, I'm not exaggerating, it was the biggest I have seen inside of my house. huge. So I just screamed my lungs out and ran out of the bathroom... The spider went to the top of the shower pole. My brother comes running and is like whats wrong, so I some how sputter out "GIANT SPIDER" So he's silly, and brings out 2 Nerf guns for us to kill it... I thinking these bullets are foam, it's not going to die... So we shoot it until it falls and it apparently died... HA! Spiders die from Nerf guns.... win. Well just to be safe I smacked it a dozen times with my slipper.. just in case. I had to pick up its dead corpse (with a tissue) and throw it into the toilet and flush it really quick, just in case it came back to life. Life threatening.

Well Last night was New Years eve, so had some drinks with my family, and my cousin Bryan, who came over.. watched Rockin New Years Eve all night, played card games, and had fun. Had mudslides to drink, which are reallly yummy. We had some pina-colada mix in the cupboard but my mom told me it was at LEAST 2 years old... grossss. I tried it anyways, because I was sure I wanted to be drunk on New Years Eve, hahaha.. but it was definitely out dated. So sad, because I love pina-coladas! But it was a chill new years! Although, I did not get a midnight kiss :( Maybe next year.

Today I have been looking at deals online, because after Christmas sales are usually really good! But I haven't really found anything that is worth buying.... :( I really want to start investing in dresses, just start wearing casual dresses everyday, because I HATE jeans/pants. lor.

I read my yearly horoscope today as well! It told me I will find love in the first half of the year!! YAY!!! hahaha, I really am at forever alone stage, so a boyfriend would make me happy. So... I have until June to meet the love of my life. I wonder who it will be... my chio angmoh co-worker, the crazy hot College Republican president (who is currently in a long-term relationship, boo), or an ADORABLE engineer I meet on campus? hmm... :) I'm kind of hoping for a cute mysterious NEW engineer :)

Well to end this post, I was cam-whoring last night, so enjoy my chioness.

Byee!!!!!!!!

Must Have...

2011-12-31T14:57:00.002-05:00

Well Helllllooo there!

Today I have been doing a ridiculous amount of online shopping! omg. I swear it makes me so happy, shopping that is, but it's truly destroying my bank account, leh. I just got paid yesterday and in one day's time I have spent $146. :( fml.
But it's not all bad! I got some really good deals... on ebay muahhaha. I only got money for Christmas as well, ($100) which I still feel bad about taking money from my parents, but they insisted! So, in actuality I have only spent $46 of my paycheck... not bad lah?
Okie, so let's start!
I really am sick and tired of my hair. I mean it's quite long.. well to my boobs.. and I really want waist length hair, that's like my dream... and it just stops growing every time it gets to its current length... here's a pic of my current length hair:

So truth be told, it NEEDS some products. I happened to discover this brand called Kao Essential damage care. It really convinced me that it will help repair and lengthen hair, which is exactly what I want! So here are some things I bought:

Hair Essential Damage Care bundle for USD$42. Includes 550 ML Shampoo and Conditioner and a Hair Treatment! It's a really good deal I think, because just the treatment alone is USD$15, and the shampoo and conditioner are very large bottles, so they will last a while!

Same brand, a leave on treatment! It supposedly instantly repairs damaged hair, and makes hair really soft :) USD$15 with FREE shipping!

My MOST favorite, that I really CANNOT wait to try! A rinse off hair mask! I heard it's incredible and does wonders for your hair! USD$14.99 with free shipping again! :)

Liese Juicy shower in raspberry! It moisturizes your hair and makes it really nice and soft. Good deal as well, USD$13.99!

MAC Lipstick in a very nice Nude-rose color! It's called Honeylove! I really like it because I'm a fan of light lips! Got it for *sad* USD$15. Cheaper than the MAC site thought, which was USD$19.

MAC glitter eyeliner in "Girl Groove". I have been looking for a glitter eyeliner EVERYWHERE, and the only place I can find any is at Sephora, but they are all quite expensive, so got this one for USD$10.99, meh not bad.

And last but not least....

ZA two-way cake foundation! I have heard nothing but good things from this foundation brand. I currently use Lancome, which believe me is nice, just very expensive.. this one isn't as expensive so win-win. I hope I like it! Finding a good foundation is one of the hardest things :p USD$30. (although mine doesn't come with refill :(!!)

I also want to buy a pair of pink circle contact lenses! It's a mere $20!!!! I wanttttttz. Hmm... going to wait so I don't feel like I'm spending all of my money at once ._. But I think these are good deals and hopefully in a couple of months I have luscious long flowing siren hair! muahahah!

May the New Year bring us all good skin and hair! <3

New Years

2011-12-30T17:40:00.001-05:00

Hai!

Each New Year I enjoy looking back and thinking about all of the good (and bad things) the year has brought me. I have encountered a whole new world this year. It's quite amazing every time I look back. I finished high school end of May and graduated in June. I said my good byes to everyone I once knew and loved in high school, including my absolutely chio teachers, whom I miss very much! I went to all of my former friends graduation parties and had my own, which was really fun! I had my LAST summer of doing absolutely NOTHING. I really had nothing to do my entire summer coz I was accepted into a great college and just had to burn time until it started.

I started COLLEGE! I know I have said it dozens of times, UNIVERSITY OF MICHIGAN. I still am in shock about how wonderful of a college it really is. It's one of the top colleges in not only the country, but the WORLD. I am so happy I worked so hard in high school to get the best grades and everything. I don't think any other college compares to the awesome-ness that U of M has.

I met a whole new crew of friends. College life is completely different than I have ever imagined. I am living on my own, making my own money, buying my own shit... so stressful, but I really enjoy it. I am living with someone totally new (my roommate, Karen) I love her. I took the chance of getting a total random as a roommate and got a new best friend. I don't talk/associate with anyone I used to in my old hometown and high school. So, I am very thankful to have all of my new friends, who are better friends than I have ever had before.

I am still FOREVER ALONE. No boyfriend, and no people who are anywhere near being my boyfriend. Hopefully that will change in the new year, 2012. I have met a couple of people who I really like, but there's just no chemistry, lah. Oh well, it's not super important to me at this point in time, just lonelyyyyyy... forever lor -__-

I have experienced the awesome-ness of MICHIGAN FOOTBALL! Wow, the games are SOOOOO fun. Everything from the pre-gaming/tail-gating at 8 am to the actual game, to all of the wins, to the after parties. I love football games. I dressed up in entire Michigan gear, season shirt, knee-high sock, pins, beads, face stickers, and cape! Lor, so fun.

I started blogging, which is a nice stress reliever, and I thoroughly enjoy it. :)

Ahh, blogging all of this makes me think about my opes and dreams.. doing great at U of M, going to an awesome Law school, traveling the world (Europe, Disney world/land, China, Japan, Singapore, Bahamas, South America, idk EVERYWHERE!), becoming a great lawyer, finding a perfect husband to travel with me ;), and have a child (EVENTUALLY), not anytime soon.

Thus, here's my new years resolutions (who knows if I will keep):

Blog more often/more frequently. I feel like it will do me good to let things out and state my opinion. I want to become a better writer, and writing more often is the way to do it!
Grow my hair out, DO NOT CUT IT, omg. I want long flowing mermaid hair.
Not forget to take my birth control pill, like omg Itz so annoying, and I want to switch this year to Yasmine or Yaz becoz mine is terribly ghetto and has the WORST side effects and makes me super fat.
Start going to the NCRB (North campus rec building) Everyday! Lose some weight, hahaha
Get All A's! Fuck yeah.
Be sure to put in 15 hours of work each week so I can maximize my paycheck, muahaha.
Always have chio nails, chio clothes, chio make-up. Just be chio all the time ;)
Invest in some cute accessories, which I never buy :(
Not be jealous of other people, whether it be looks/success/etc. -__-
Get a boyfriend. ...
Do all homework/get shit done on time.
Put a lot of time into studying, get shit done. LOL
Eat better, stop snacking in my dorm room!!! Damnit!
Save money.
Vote for whichever republican candidate wins the nomination, and help with election with my College Republicans.
Party less, not quite QUIT drinking, just focus on school man, I WANNA BE A LAWYER.
Study more often at the DUDE (North campus library) so I can find myself a sexy engineer to marry.
Be nice to people more often, be more outgoing.. you know. Campus is a friendly place.
Clean more often, our dorm was a disaster frequently.
Possibly tan more, when it gets warm out.. spend a lot of time laying out, getting sun... god knows I am in desperate need of it!
Find the perfect tongue barbell... I really want a gem one!!
Be patient with dumb people.
Not let people who are going no where with life and talk about me get to me becoz I am living and will without a doubt have a much more awesome life than they ever will, haha!

Okie, that will suffice. Let's bring in the New Year and try to make the best of it!

Christmas 2011

2011-12-26T15:47:00.007-05:00

HOLA!

I want to wish a Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone! My Christmas was very nice. I didn't get a chance to snap any pictures, but it was really nice. I came home from college on December 19th. Finished my semester and cannot wait to begin a new one. Here is a peep at my new schedule, look! :)

I am really excited to start this new semester! Okie, so I have been able to do lotz since I have been home. I did a lot of Christmas decorating throughout my house, and outside. I decorated the Christmas tree this year.. usually my mom does the lights, but I did it this year haha. But it turned out really chio!!! And we did outside lights, it turned out really cute as well, but it was kind of hard to get a decent picture.

Later in the week, we made tons and tons of Christmas cookies! First we started off with chocolate chip cookies, they didn't really come out good to be honest, lolz. They were like puffy and not....good. But then! We made peanut butter cookies (which are my most favorite cookies EVER) sooooooo damn good! They came out perfect. And lastly we made around 100 roll out sugar cookies with frosting! It took ages to decorate each and every one, but they came out really pretty and nice! Here's a pic!

Okie so Christmas day! Christmas day I was woken up at 8 am, (which is crazy early for me) by my little brother who was way excited. He got tons of video games and action figures. I got some really cute high heel furry boots! I love them. I also got a new pair of leggings, many pairs of socks, tons of pretty nail polish, perfume, and uh I can't even think right now, lolz. A pretty business shirt.. hello kitty slippers and pants.

I went to both of my grandparents houses, which is always stressful for me, leh. But it was nice seeing EVERYONE in my family for the first time in a long time (Since like last Easter hahah :p). I got a coat from my grandma, but it looks like a robe lmao, but my mom said I should take it back and get like a white winter coat. I really needed a coat, so this is all good lah.

And oh god, at my grandma on my mom's side house (the crazy side) we all drank captain morgan and each of us got a cup that has a line from the 12 days of christmas song on it. We filmed us all singing it... it was the strangest, and funniest thing I have ever participated in. Got sort of tipsy so... it was probably hilarious.I swear my family is crazy, but I love it :)

Merry Christmas To All!

Can't wait for New Years ;)

What's been going on?

2011-12-26T12:52:00.000-05:00

HEYA!

Wow, It's been over two months since I have posted, lah! Finally finished my first semester at U of M! No lie, itz pretty hard. I ended up getting all B's (Political Science, English, Pysch) and a C+ in French. French is actually pretty hard, I have a horrible memory lor. So, today iz the day after CHRISTMAS! I am finally at home, (my parents). So LAH sooooo much has happened since I have posted back in October.

Let's start, with Halloween. Last post was on what I was planning on wearing for Halloween coz there were going to be some epic Halloween parties, of course. So over the course of the week me and my roommate went to various salvation armies and rags to riches type places trying to find clothing pieces that would be awesome to wear with our "ideal" Halloween costumes, my roommate wanted to be a Hippie and I was aiming to be a Kitty. (possibly Hello Kitty coz I totally loveeee Hello Kitty :p). So after failed attempts at trying on ugly old lady clothes from many many stores, we finally "sort of" pieced together our costumes.

Okie, so we looked COMPLETELY CHIO. I had the hardest time deciding which top to wear with my costume. I wanted to wear a white shirt, coz I had white fluffy leg warmers! Oh well, the black, pink, & white looked chio in the end, leh. Okie so Halloween, overall was quite..... O.K. Lolz

So we went out and there were TONS of parties, don't get me wrong, the police were just shutting them down soooo much, and giving out MIP's! :( That's not cool whatsoever. So we were about to give up, and started to walk back to the bus station and head back to north campus coz we weren't really having much fun. Then we met some people, "Dick in a box" and "Dick Cheney", LOLz. They were srsly the funniest people ever. Like I laughed so much that night, zomg. They ended up inviting us to go to a party with them and it was a pretty chill house party. I ended up meeting this guy, who was dressed up as "Neo from the Matrix", but he really looked like a sushi chef, lolz. He was really sweet. We stayed at the party until about 4 am, and had to call a "Ride-home", which is free from my school, thank god coz the buses stop running at 2 am. But we all live on north campus, and they invited us to come up to their apartment at the Court yards, which are realllly nice :) We ended up making some tea and playing apples to apples until 7 am, Lor! We had to walk back to Baits I (where I live :p) which isn't tooo far, in the FREEEEZING weather. Like it was soo cold, everything was frosty and I could see my breath! :( But it ended up being a fairly fun night, and we met some cool people, even though I have yet to see them since that day!

After Halloween, I haven't really been up to much. The weeks seem to all blur together coz it seems like it's same shit, different week.. you kno how that goes, leh. My week consists of going to classes, doing homework for ~3 hours, then studying, as in memorization and practice for the rest of the night. I go to bed around 2 or 3 am every night, so I get A LOT of studying in. I also work too, so I mean I have things to do, academic wise, EVERY night, lah. I am trying sooo hard to try and get all A's becoz my dream law school, at U of M, requires a 3.5 GPA! -__- Itz going to be a lot of work!

So my days are quite boring. Same thing every week day, but on weekend, they all seem to blur together as well. I mean some weekend I just stay in. But mostly, since the parties kind of suck, like frat parties, so I just go to my friend, Mike's apartment. I don't know, itz kind of boring doing same thing every week!!!

I also told you how I am in the College Republicans at the University of Michigan! Well we went to a gun range, Firing Line in Livonia a couple of weeks ago! It was really fun. I have shot a gun multiple times in the past, so this was not my first time, but my roommate came along with me and it was her first time, lah!

But anywayz, I got a few cool things since the last time I have posted! First, the BIG ONE, lah! I got my tongue pierced! :) Itz soo cute, I love jewelry! So I want to get a really pretty one with lotz of gems, and I will love it. I also got 3 new pairs of coloured contacts, Golden brown, blue, and grey. :) So I guess herez sum cam whoring picturez!!! ;)

Golden Brown contacts, like?

Tongue piercing!

Okie, so this iz a good catch up on what is going on! Today is the 26th of December, so I will create a post on the events of Christmas as well!!

Au Revoir!

Halloween Costume 2011

2011-10-18T21:39:00.000-04:00

I LOVE halloween soo much! And one of the funnest things is finding/creating a costume. I realllly wanted to be a Geisha (Sexy one of course) But omg... costumes are like $50 USD ... not worth it... Soo I noticed at my favourite sexy clothing online store, amiclubwear.com, they has the most chio build yourself halloween costumes... So this is what I ordered....

White Leg warmers

This pink skirt

Ears/Bowite/Tail

Im thinking something like this:

Im somehow going to incorporate all of this into a super chio costume, lah.. using the rest with stuff that I already own... We'll see how it turns out!! ^_^ I'll post a pic when it arrives!

SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS

2011-10-18T21:28:00.001-04:00

I know that this is terribly late, since welcome week was nearly 8 weeks ago.. haha. But better late than never, right? lah! Okie.. so I am going to try and cover as much as possible, that I can remember from Welcome Week 2011, until now.

Welcome week:

Night 1-
I met my adorable roomate, Karen!

Karen

She's from a whole different world than me, lolz. NEW YORK CITY. Could I be any more jealous!?! NYC is like soo chio, I wish I could at the LEAST visit there, omg!
But okie, I met Karen, me and her are totally chill, like the same, yet soo different. Then I met my neighbors, Tim and Zeek. Zeeks name is really Isaiah (I dun kno if I spelled it coorect?) lolz.... But they're pretty legit!

Zeek

Tim

Okie, Soo met them all and omg we're all like BFFF's now, lah. Soo night time arrives, and we're like DAMN we need to party, I mean itz COLLEGE! woo. Soo Tim has some Vodka, YUM... And we all start drinking. We played the game "Kings" which apparently is a great icebreaker game, lmao. Sooo a deck of cards is thrown in the middle, and each person takes a turn and picks a card up, and each card number/whatev haz a meaning, so u gotta like do whatever and the loser takes a shot. I waz totally cursed and kept getting 8-Interrogate.... which means everyone there can ask you ANYTHING they want.. and u have to answer... leh lolol. So halfway thru this game I meet Eli and Arturo (sp? lul).

Arturo

Eli

Then itz off to Central campus we go!

We first went to this GIANT block party, which is hands down the best party of the year thus far, lolz. It waz ah-mazzzinggggg. Like it waz srsly the biggest party I have ever seen.. it was like 3 blocks long of, EVERY house has a party, the streets were completely filled.. it waz LEGIT. I had soo much fun. We all ended up seperating into small groups haha, I was with Eli the whole night, lah. Soo... It was me and Eli... and I have learned if ur a female, u get anything u want.. So theres a keg at every single house.... And every house is full, so i'd take Eli & my cup up to each keg and get them filled up in a second, mahahha. For a guy, that would take forever... So we get really shwasted reallllly quick lollol.
The block party got broken up by the police at around 12, midnightm which waz tooo damn early, leh... But believe me there were about 4935789475894389 other parties to attend! So it was just myself and Eli walking looking for this house that Tim told us about, and we FINALLY find it haha... Which I now go to all the time... I cant remember the name and shit, coz all Frat houses are like delta pi phi gamma shit, u kno! lolz. But itz a frat house, we go in and play beer pong for hourz haha. I mean it waz the coolest beer pong table ever.. it was like an octogon shape, so like.... 4 teams could play at once... legit shit lah.
Then me and Eli totally hit it off... but we were wasted of course lolz... and we were laying in the grass for everrr.. and um ya.. ;) I'll stop there...
But then we realize itz like 5 am.... and buses stopped running at 3 am... DAMN. Soo we attempted to walk home to north campus LOL... we spent 45 min walking in the wrong direction.. coz itz our first night here and we're wasted.. not good combo lah. Soo We finally decide to call a cab.. and thats where night 1 ended.

The rest of welcome week consisted of the same festivities hahah. It waz AWESOME. Drank like sooo damn much.

Soo... once classes started shit got real, lah. U of M is like super difficult haha, but I mean.. I'm doin it! lolz. I'm taking Political Science, English, French, and Psychology. And im working as a research assistant.

In between then and now, every weekend is a football game, and I will make a totally seperate post for football games, coz I have sooooo many pictures and stories to tell there in itself, hahaha =)

Okie, letz bring it forward a bit... I'm in a SORORITY! Well I made it to the pledge process! Nice. Yes, DELTA GAMMA PHI. aka DGPhi... itz a Pre-Law sorority, and itz reallly fun, i love it! My friend Ciara iz in it, and shez soo awesome! Itz just really exciting.. all of the rush events were really fun. We had a social night, which was a movie, and icecream sundaes, just chatting and meeting everyone. Then we had an academic night, where we got to learn about the LSAT, which I am now TERRIFIED to take haha... Im actually taking a practice LSAT exam Oct. 22, which is in a couple of dayz... damn. leh.

I joined College Republicans, it iz actually my favourite extracurricular activity I do! Itz soo much fun... I am a hard core republican soo I love all of these people in the group, They're soo chio. I'm on the recruiting committee it is soo fun! We are in charge of inviting people to come to our group meetings and spreading the republican beliefs! The president chair is also EXTREEEEMLY hot... omg Hez liek superrr sexy, I cant even explain it mahahah. Yum.

Okie Sooo... that covers the main points of what has been going on in my college career!

Letz go to FALL BREAK 2011 now.
Which was this last weekend, haha from Friday until today, Tuesday.
Friday-
It started with hanging out with my coworker/boss haha. Hez like kinda my boss coz hez sometimes put in charge when the real boss is gone... but he works with me as a researcher at the university. He is extremely adorable and chio.. omg. Soo I met up with him at his apartment in Northwood... Itz pretty cute and soo boyish ahhahah... He haz a single, soo no roomate ;) We "Hung Out" hahah... omg hez so hot.. anywayz u know ;)
After that nice "pre-gaming" he walked me to the bus stop where I went to central to go to my friends party... Okie you remember Mike from my older posts! OMG the super sexy one I said I'd have no chance in the world with.. well NOW he always invites me to party with him.. and well thats where I was going for Friday. lah. Soo this night started great hahah... I got there we played this drinking game, I dun remember what itz called but itz something like get fucked up real quick lmao. Soo I downed 2 beers realll quick.. Then Mike made me a mixed drink, consisting of 75% Mohawk tequila and 25% Squirt, that like orange pop stuff.. It was reallllllllllyyyy yummy, and u couldnt taste alcohol at all... Damn good, hahahha =)
Then.... my friend Zach came over... with 2 bottles of Jager, Absolute, and Bacardi! I stopped counting how many shots I took, at 8.... and I was chaseing my shots with the tequila mixed drink... damnnn.. Thatz the last thing I remember... Talk about getting fucked up ahha. I ended up waking up and thinking OH SHIT I missed the bus... then I look out the window and itz sunny and shit, lolz. I have throw up all over my super chio coat too, so I waz major pissed about that... and So I go to the bus stop and wait like 20 min and NO buses come by... so omg wtf. Then I look at the bus schedule sign behind me... no buses until noon.. the time then was 8:30 am... mahahaha. So I had to call a cab, and I waz still drunk when I woke up, lolz. Soo bad.
I slept in the next day until 6 pm. Now thatz how u know u had a great night! LOLZ.

But there were a couple more parties besides that one.. but that waz the highlight of the break.. So I will keep up to date from now on!! And FOOTBALL post coming up next! =)

University of Michigan 2011

2011-09-20T10:44:00.001-04:00

Hello! Okie if you have been wondering where the hell I have been, well.......

I moved into my dorm at the University of Michigan! Yayyyy! Ya so im like realllly loving it! I moved in on Wednesday August 31st! It was like alll brand new and fun, with hundreds of people I have never even seen before lmao.

So for the first day, my parents came and helped me move in. I live in Baits 1, in Parker house... all the way on the 4th floor! Omg it seriously suckssss having to go up and down all the time, lolz. Welll worse than constantly having to go up and down stairs (no elevator in my building), when I moved in we had to carry ALL of my boxes up the stairs haha. I felt sooo bad coz my dad was carrying all the big boxes, lah. I had this HUGE box containing all of my clothes, im sure u can imagine how crazy big and heavy that box was, lehhh... My dad had to carry it up 4 stories of stairs. Poor thing.

My Cute Bed, which has now been changed into a bunk bed with my roomate, but i totalllly adore the comforter set! CHIO

Closet!

Desk! Which looks terribly messy in this pic, leh

Storage unit! kawaii

Now letz move on to the good stuff.... ;)

WELCOME WEEK 2011!

If youre curious what this welcome week thing is, well i'll tell u now. it iz just ONE BIG PARTY. lololz. Soo like EVERY single night of welcome week, which was 7 dayz long, obv lah.... I went to a zillion parties!! Okie I mean I used to drink like a decent amount, chill and be a total party girl, but OMG...

TO BE CONTINUED....

Update - Long Post

2011-08-23T20:23:00.001-04:00

Hello =)
I believe I am in dire need of a new blog! So I thought i'd give an update of my current life situation.

FIRST OF ALL, before u continue to read the scrumptious detailz of my awesome-tastic life check out my new twitter background. I designed it today and totally adore it. Even tho u cant reallly see all of the cuteness, itz much better than the one before. Pink of course.

CLICK HERE.

Now that u totally checked that out and you're thinking about how marvelous my twitter page is... Im sure u noticed the NEW twimg =) Herez a couple of cam-whore picz I took a couple days ago.. I actually curled my hair lah. Lookz sooo damn chio!

Ya ya, total camwhoring, but i think curly hair lookz totally chio on me, I never do it... maybe I should more often..

Okie well letz see... Im totally SUPER EXCITED becoz I move into my dorm at University of Michigan in Ann Arbor in 8 days!!! wooo, so fun!! Im a little nervous but I think it will be great. lor, Im actually first person in my whole entire family to actually LIVE on campus. Soo new adventure. Ive taken courses at Henry Ford Communtiy College for 2 years now, soo I think im good for doing college level work, I just heard U of M iz like reallll hard lahhhh... Not only am I crazy excited to move in, but I told u about my season football ticketz!!!! First game is SEPTEMBER 3rd!!! lahhh, sooooo excited!! I have a feeling me and my roommate are gonna be like bfffe's coz shez real cool, and we're gonna be party partners in crime, lah! I have not done ANY packing of any sort... I dun kno if I should start... mahahaha =) Still have some shopping to get done, but basically have everythingggg I need! yey!

And besidez awesome school/moving in to new place news... Yesterday I spent the day with Christian for hiz 24th birthday!!!! Yay! =) I totally adoreeee birthdays, lah! So chio. Well hez been terribly sick with mono the last couple days... Okie I've had mono before... so i dun think I have ANY chance of getting it.. i hope, lor. Coz i mean i've kissed him and everything zomg, if i get it, i'll be soo upset.. but I dun feel sick or anything, so I doubt I will. Anywayz, hez had that.. and I totally dun want it soo i've been holding off hanging out with him, wahahah... But yesterday was hiz birthday soo I HAD to hang out with him =) So we went out to Outback Steak House for dinner. I got pork chop and mashed potatoes.. it waz pretty good. Lolz. Then we went shopping for a little bit... and went to the movies. We seen Planet of the Apes (As u all know, I have already seen this) But I told him to pick, coz itz his birthday. And after the movie, we went to "Huroc Park" in Flat Rock... like it waz midnight by the time we got there, so we were walking down the trails... and we heard people talking from the woods, next to the river... Christian goes in and scares these guys.. I could not stop laughing... they were just minding their own business, fishing... lahhh.. Soo funnny. mahahaha =) (I have an evil sense of humor too).

Okie so i totally adore Christians face. Lolz... Hez really sweet and I had a great time with him... But.........

There iz, of course, James.. my James... lolz. So we've been talking lately... And hez like all super chio and sweet and perfect... and Im like aw I <3 you. But you see.. he has a girlfriend.... UGH! I know, he waited until I totally adore him, once again, to tell me.... I hate guyz. Soo after telling me this, I waz in complete and utter shock.. I mean he gave me far too many signs that he completely adored me and everything.. I thought he wanted to be with me.... lah. Soo I asked him hiz situation with her.. coz he said he 'still wanted to be with me'. He told me he didn't really like her, and he didnt want to be with her... and that they were going to break up soon.... Soo I mean, Im in situation to jump into a relationship real quick, so I thought okie... give him some time to get single.. and give me some time to drop my guyz and we can totally get together in maybe a week. hahaha..

Soo we just texted for a week or so, and we totally had this crazy amazing connection, I feel like hez PERFECT for me. Then he drops a bomb on me. "My girlfriend lives with me, so itz hard to get rid of her." -____- What the fuck?! Why would he not tell me this?! This changes EVERYTHING... Ugh so I was sooo unhappy with our situation at this point. He then confesses hiz love for me and tellz me, Oh we dont talk anymore, yes she lives with me but we dun sleep in the same room, we hardly see eachother coz I alwayzz work, and we both know we're not going to be together once we both get enough money to move out. And this time I made it clear, "Ur NOT planning to move out TOGETHER are u??" mahahha, yes Im a smart ass... But still upset with him about not telling me this... Soo he once again convinces me him and her are totally over and they both agree itz over..

We continue talking, and falling deeper and deeper for eachother, coz I mean I reallllly like him by this point, and I waz prettty confident he felt the same way, lah. Soo Im thinkin everything iz fine and dandy then, I swear Im not a facebook stalker, lmaooo... I mean I hardly even looked at hiz facebook.. but I just wanted to see hiz 'girlfriend' to see why he didnt like her soo much anymore... and u know what I see..... ._.

Pictures of him and her in BED posted THE DAY we talked.

I see this posted THE DAY I looked at her profile.

Itz very well clear to me now, that he LIED to me... No way on earth would she be posting thiz shit if they had supposedly "no feelings" for eachother anymore. This waz all posted within 2 dayz of eachother... I think Mr. James forgot he waz dealing with a U of M LAW student... mahahaha =) I can find the truth about anything and everything.

So, being me, I confronted hiz ass about this. So herez Text message convo

Me- "James.. I dun think we're going to work out, as much as I hate to say it."

J- "What?!?!?! ?????????"

Me- "becoz u LIED to me. u do realize I am a u of m law student, not some dumb bimbo that u think u can play. I fucking hate liars, cheaters, & man pigs. And as of right now i think u have fallen into all of those catergories."

J- "What are u talking about??"

Me- "Do u think im stupid and wont find out if ur playing me & making empty promises?"

J- "Thats hurtful to say.. if you have no faith in me and can't believe in me Idk what to say"

Me- "Well its pretty hurtful to lie to me."

J- "I am not lieing to you"

Me- "James I was on fb today ..and seen ur 'gf's posts"

J- "What was her posts remember I live with her!!! You have some guy on your facebook that sure talks to you like he's your bf"

Me- "I DONT HAVE A STUPID BF. and its clear to me u still treat ur gf like u love her, and she obv has no clue that ur supposedly 'not interested' in her anymore."

J- "Nonono I told you istill had to be nice"

Me- "....U make no sense.. theres a fine line between being nice and being too nice."

J- "How am I being too nice!"

Me- "/sigh. when the other person is like 'omg i like love my bf' and when u get them roses and when u have pics in bed with them posted a day ago."

J- "Those r old"

Me- "Ya they were posted yesterday"

J- "Older pics tho"

Me- "...."

J- "If you don't want to be with me then just say it. But don't call me a liar. I have done nothing but be honest with you."

Me- "I never said i DONT want to be with u... I just dun like getting played and will not be. i just want u to tell me the truth, i wont be mad if ur just honest with me. I just wish u didnt have a gf nor live with her. And im sorry if i sounded mean.. im just tired of getting used and treated like shit by guys."

J- "I wouldn't do that to you. An I am not lieing to you...."

And thatz our conversation. I dun know what to do with this James. I adore him, I cannot deny that, lahh. **Remember this is James as in the blog "My Marine"** I <3 everything about him except hiz gf and lieing and deceitful wayz. hahaha. Im not sure what decision Im going to conclude with this whole ordeal... only time will tell....... I dun know what to do. lah

Engagement

2011-08-16T22:58:00.000-04:00

Well Im not getting engaged. Lolz... But it keeps getting brought up! And not by me... lah! hahahaha =) As I said Christian keeps going on and on about marrying me... Like he thinks im a bimbo and and cant tell when hez like... "iz money a huge problem for u.. like if a guy is poor or something would u like not marry him??" What the hell? Does he think im a selfish bitch?! hahaha, I guess I do put off that persona, mahahaha. But he keeps talking about why I wont marry him, and listing it off basically, laaa.

Message and message I finally replied, If u ask me while giving me a super chio ring, then I might just marry you. wahahaha =) I even sent him a sample ring that I am in love with..

This ring is so chio.

I dun mean to sound like a stuck up bitch, but I think an AH-DORABLE engagement ring is a must. Like itz my dream to have that perfect super shiny, super chio ring that sparkles and glimmers with each beam of light that hits it. I want it to be soo noticeable and perfect. I have never really thought about what kind of engagement ring i'd really want until recently. Today I went thru dozens of jewelry stores and i've decided the heart shaped rings are the BEST type of ring for me.

I am the type of person who like to be v unique, and different from people.. Dun get me wrong, I think the traditional solitaire rings are beautiful, and u can really put a HUGE diamond on them, but I like things that people haven't seen before.. something that just catches attention lah. I realllllly love how there are small little diamonds all the way around the heart! OMG perfect.... lahhhhh. & If I were to get a solitaire i'd get something like...

I reallly like the band on that one.. how it seperates into two... like this ring would be really cute wuth the heart diamond cut with the small diamonds around the heart! awwwhh. But I like the band on this alot. And omg choosing a solitaire iz hard... theres sooo many rings out there. Soo chio tho.

And omg I have had a total dream of how I want to be proposed too.. Okie itz a little extravagant.. but itz my ideal proposal, and i udnerstand if i dun get it, wahahaha.. altho i deserve it =)

Location: Paris, France.. Upon the top floor of the eifffel tower, where that adorable restaurant iz.

Okie, heres the scene... I come up to the third floor, and itz completely empty besides this little group of musicians playing a romantic tune, and my gorgeous bf standing next to a table for 2. We have a romantic dinner, and by the time we finish, itz like nice and dark, but the sky iz lit up by the stars. We are overlooking the view from the top of the eiffel tower side by side.. and he says my name and I look over and hez on one knee, asking me to marry him with the light pink heart cut diamond ring (pictured above) and I say YES!!!!

Yeah, itz over the top, but omg would be my dream. ♥

Happy Birthday to Boo!

2011-08-14T23:35:00.001-04:00

Happy Birthday to my baby brother Boo! Hez finally 11 years old, awwwwwh. My little brother has grown up soo fast! Itz adorable. lah

So for hiz birthday, I asked him what he'd like... and hez totally obssessed with video games, mahahaha =) But he wrote out a giant list of $210 worth of video games.. So a couple days before hiz party me and my mom took him to gamestop to get all the games he wanted. I mean on hiz list he put like old ass games, I doubted if we'd even find them lolz.

After hourz of searching for these games, and the guyz working there thought it waz quite funny that we were looking for such old games, he waz like what are u doin? A scavenger hunt?!!?! Wahahahaha =) But we did find every game he listed.. hiz list included like ALL the Metroid prime games and stuff. laaa..... So the overall damage done waz $224... a little more than anticipated, BUT hez happy soo la =)

Once we got home, I made the cake. Altho it waznt a REAL cake... it waz a brownie/chocolate chip cookie combo... i dun kno what it iz like forreal... but itz reallllllly good. yum. And like i wont lie im a terrribad cook, but it came out very good.

Doesnt it look FANTASTIC?! =) Mahahaha. And herez my baby brother blowing out his candles!!! lah

So remember when I told u about my bowling history.... well for birthday, the birthday person getz to choose what we do that whole day... and Boo chose to go bowling! hahahha, sooo heres a look at our scores... plz excuse my awful hand writing ><

We are all terrible at bowling as u can see, LOLz. Oh well it waz really fun... we played 3 gamez... and it took about 3 hours! hahahha, I didnt even realize it would be that long, but time passed by soo quickly... and OMG there waz an EXTREMELYYYY hot guy next to us... like omg... super sexy. damn. but i couldnt make a move... coz I mean I was there with family and everything hahahha.

Soo after bowling, Boo got to choose his dinner of choice, aka hiz MOST FAVOURITE meal.... and u know what he chose?! MCDONALDS.. wahhahaa.... ew.. I passed on that.. becozzzzzz..... I had dinner plans with Christian... hahaha..

Christian picked me up for a dinner date, and we went to Olive Garden. It waz actually my frist time going there, and it waz pretty good ^_^ I ordered some lasagna... but they ran out of like lasagna meat.. so it waz just cheese and noodles... like soo much cheese, I could only eat like half of one. But the bread waz soooo good, hahaha.

After dinner, we came back to my house, where he actually met my parents for the first time, leh. LOLz... he try to act alll sweet and innocent, wahahaha ;) But it waz fun, we all played this mario kart racing game! Me and my dad were kinda suckish.. Christian and Boo basically won the whole time. I won once tho, and that counts for something!

Pretty ah-dorable day.. Ended up watching the texas chainsaw masacre and the mist before going to bed with Christian..I get soo scared watching scary movies.. like I cuddled on him soo close Lolz.. he prob enjoyed it a ton tho ;) hahah, but anywayz SUPER HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BOO!

Honey Color

2011-08-11T19:38:00.001-04:00

I LOVE my honey color contacts.

I received them in the mail yesterday, and completely adore them. They make my eyes look marvously humungous and dark! I realllly find dark eyes soooo attractive. I am stuck with light eyes (green/hazel colour), and I dun really like them leh. I have really dark hair naturally, so I think the dark hair/dark eyes combination is gawww-geous.

I never realized how difficult it was to put contacts in, until I did it for the first time with my honey color contacts, wahahahaha. I seriously spent a good 30 min, in tear getting the damn things in my eyes..lah. When the night waz over I was expecting to have a huge ordeal getting them out.. especially since I didnt get home until 4:30 AM... they actually came out much easier than getting them in. To my surprise, they are actually very comfortable to wear, they dun bother my eyes at all and look super chio.

Today, when I put them in again.. I was dreading to have the same hassel az before.. but I actually got them in quite swiftly mahahahaa =) See, practice makez perfect! Lol... but I totally adore them and thought I'd share.

The contacts from Honeycolor.com are only around ~$20 a pair and theyre superrrrr kawaii!!! I cant wait to get another pair.. i'd totally LOVE having like every color and changing my eyez to match everyyyy outfit =)

Purse shopping is soo difficult

2011-08-11T19:26:00.000-04:00

Purse shopping is one of the most difficult things ever, lah. I know exactly what I want from a purse.. like I want it to be big.. and CHIO... like a bright pink colour or something.. you know?! Soo I was browsing on some typical store sites that I usually go to at the mall.. and their selection is terrrible... like I tend to alwayzzz love the purses at Vanity, but they had like nothing online to choose from... well they had purses, but I mean they were quite ugly. Then I checked wetseal, pacsun, hottopic, jcpenny, fashionbug, forever 21... and they all were pretty disappointing... leh.. whyz purse shopping soo hard?!

Just when I thought i'd have to go another day with the ugly purse that I am currently using... well itz not ugly.. but itz old and outdated!! wahahahaha.... I waz thinking whatz the easiest way to get a super chio pink purse? then I thought like zomg I want a HELLO KITTY purse... mmm =) lolz... Sooo i found the official hello kitty site... sanrio.com, lah... and okie I LOVED everythinggggg there.. like wow they have some of the cutest stuff.. I ended up getting and adorable hello kitty purse,.... cosmetic bag, and wallet.

My cosmetic bag (the second one) waz actually golden cheetah print, but i guess they already sold out?! Wow I got soooo lucky, just ordered yesterday! lolz. But it waz pretty crazy.. coz all I was intending on buying waz the purse.. but I could NOT pass up the other stuff, itz wayyyy to kawaii!

But anywayz.. besides purse shopping being rediculously difficult... this morning I went to see PLANET OF THE APES. It waz pretty epic. Well first of all I know ur prob like why would u go see a movie in the morning... ya 10:00 AM .... it waz becoz it was a matinee (i think thatz how itz spelled?) And it only cost $5.00!! I never knew that..wahahaha.. But thatz a pretty good deal.. I mean at night time itz like an outrageous $10 for 1 ticket!!! Except the redic rise in prices of movie tickets dun affect me, coz I honestly haven't purchased one in YEARS, mahahahaa.. oh the luxuries of being a girlll... =) And to think about it.. I havent paid for a meal... like going out to eat.. even fast food... in years as well... mahahaha.. i LOVE guyz ... sometimes ^_^

But back to Planet of the Apes... yes it waz reallly good. Like the animation and shit waz reallllly coool. And the movie had a sweet ending.. Like I didnt even notice coz they start playing credits..and u get up and everything.. then they start showing more of the movie!!! LOLz... and that last tiny piece waz like the most important part to catch... So if u go see it.. dun forget to watch that part!!! lol.

And last night I hung out with the infamous C, Christian... hahaha =) Yes, hiz identity is revealed now, coz I cannot keep up with the one-letter-nicknames... We went to the Monroe County Fair! It waz absolutely chio! I know I sound I sound like a terrrible bimbo for hanging out with him after all he did.. but I had nothing to do last night.. and then he invited me.. and I have never been to a fair.. so I thought what the hell?! Lolz...

But overall the fair waz really sweet.. even tho it waz crazy humid and my hair turned into AFRO THUNDER or sum shit by the end of the night.. wahahaha... it even rained on us lah.. But it waz really cute.. There waz all the animals in the world... cows, horses, bunnies, ducks, chickens, pigs.. They even had exotic animals.. a cheetah, alligator, monkeys, foxes. Soooo adorable.. I should have taken pictures!! And zOMG! There were goats, sheep, and llamas all in this ginormous pen.. and they made the FUNNIEST noise ever.. LOLz.. I could not stop laughing at how they sounded... To write out how it sounded.. "BEHHHH!!" Lmao... They each had their own voice too.. it waz sooo funny.. Me and Christian sat there for like 15 mins just dieing laughing.. even tho everyone prob thought we were retarded.. it waz funny. Lah.. Im still smiling just thinking about it.

Apparently there is a food group considered "Fair food" lolz... I dun know what it consists of.. but Christian kept insisting I get a polish sausage.. wtf is that?! mahahaha =) I just kept thinking dirty.. so when we ordered he was like um she'll take a sausage.. coz she loves them.. the guy thought I was silly.. lolz.. then we got home-made root beer! It waz soo good.. And he also bought me a "Tropical Ice Shavings" thing.. I got pina coloda flavour.. yum! So good.

Christian is from Monroe himself.. soo like he had all these people who knew him.. and we ran into one of his friends.. I cannnot recall hiz name tho.. leh I hate when that happens... I think it waz Craig.. Joe.. something... LOLz... But he waz soo funny. Like he kept insisting that we were dating.. And waz like soo when are u 2 gonna start dating?? I was like Neverrr lah. Mahahaha =) And He told Christian.. oh it'd be sooooo romantic if u asked her to be ur gf on the ferris wheel! leh... dumb boyz.. wahaha. Oh and hiz friends gf showed up.. with her family... Her dad or something had this iPad... and waz like taking picturez of us.. it waz a little weird.. coz itz not like he told us too pose.. he just waz taking pictures.. we were like we're gonna see those pictures posted on the internet or somethin... LOLz....

OH, I forgot to show u how SUPER CHIO I looked yesterday... zomg I was totally camwhoring..

So anywayz, when it got dark out we got on the ferris wheel! It waz soo super adorable. There were hardly any other people going on the rides hahaha.. but it waz pretty kawaii. When we were on it Christian waz like "Will u marry me?" Wahahahahaa.. I just burst out laughing and waz like shut up! lmao. He actually took it to heart, that I waz mean about it.. but he wasnt serious in the first place XD lah, sillllly boyz. But we did have one of those silver screen perfectly romantic kisses on the top of the ferris wheel, awwwwwh ♥

Who's really to blame?

2011-08-09T14:23:00.000-04:00

Alright I'm just sick of all this "Obama is great, its all Bush and the tea party's fault"... Explain to me why African American liberals in power always jump to how dissagreeing with Obama and his policies makes a person racist or an uncle tom if the person against Obama happens to be black? I have seen several African American house members, Jesse Jackson, the rev. Al....all state at one point or another that if you disagree with him its becoz of race. Not everything is based on race.

Liberals had a shot. They had several years with a Democratic POTUS, Senate, and house... and nothing got done but have our debt go up. What liberals seem to not understand.. or rather would not, is the fact that the recession was predicted in Clinton's presidency after the internet bubble burst. He was warned about the the fair housing act and that it couldn't sustain itself over a long period of time without regulation. So banks naturally were allowed to make toxic loans. Clinton lame ducked it in his last year as president and never passed any bills for regulation. If anyone recalls, his own party during that election year made a point about needing to pass regulation.

Bush becomes president and then 9-11 happened. Most of the focus went to just that...neglected bills and legislation needed to be passed...it wasn't. Democrats shook their fists about a war they didn't want though shockingly went with it to remain popular in the public's eye. People were angry the war lasted so long..misinformation came from all media outlets and dems won the house and Senate. Same house and Senate that voted for stimulus and tax cuts under Bush.

Obama steps in becoz the GOP didn't really have a solid candidate, lets be honest....and lo and behold dems have everything...house, Senate, and whitehouse. I want liberals to look back now...I want u to see, there is no one to blame but the party that is liberal. Liberals only know these things for sure..."the rich are evil unless its them who are rich, the GOP are racist and the tea party is made up of morons." This is their mantra because they have nothing else. Its all finger pointing and making themselves victims.

Stop already, enough. We can't have change or move forward when you keep marching to the same wrong beat.

My Marine

2011-08-05T14:51:00.001-04:00

Okie there is nothing i love more than a man in uniform. That is actually the kind of guy I want to marry.. strong.. handsome.. masculine.. sexy.. nice body.. lah. I dun know why, but i've always been attracted to guys in the military. Maybe itz the power, domination, or authorative role they hold. Im seriousllly infatuated by them. ♥‿♥

So I have my own! I know, i know... me and my men...lah! Okok so his name is James. Hez actually an ex of mine.. but it dun realllly count lolz.. so I wont hold anything against him. Hez a sexy, beautiful, super sweet, super funny,.... perfect... marine!

I hope he dun kill me for using his photo, LOLz lah... but I just had to prove how beautiful he iz..... laaa!!! wahahahahha =) I adore hiz face.

So I met James, for the first time about 2 and a half years ago at a party... It happened to be his "Going-Away Party"... LOLz... I know thatz not the ideal situation to meet the love of ur life, lah! But it actually was quite perfect.

So it started when I went bowling with my sister, and like 5 of my cousins, that actually waz a pretty funny day.. Im terribad at bowling by the way.... liek without bumpers my average score is 30.... wahahahhaha =) Oh wellllz, at least I have fun doing it. But may I say, with bumpers on the lane I can score up to ~145, mahahahaha! See Im not that awful, lah!

So once we finished bowling, I hopped in my sisters car and she was like, "Do you wanna go to a party?" And I was like sure... So we were on our way there, and got totally lost finding our way to his house. It was in the subdivision, and u know how wacky those roads get, and we're like bimbo blondes, lah! LOLz.... And im the crazy one out of us 2 sisters, so I called up this boys house we were going to, I mean I knew NO ONE.. so I wasnt sure quite what to expect at this party, and told him "zOMG we're totally lost.. we're at ____ & _____ street.. HELP!" And he waz absolutely adorable.. and told us how to get there.. Before we got there, I asked my sister if she was into any of these guys at this party, and she was like helllz no.

This iz James the day I met him.. Sooo Chio right? ♥‿♥

Once we arrived, after driving by the house like 743874983298 timez, lolz.... we finally got there.. and it was deff not what i was expecting.. wahahah =) I didnt even know it waz a going away party until I got there. But I walked in the house.. there were maybe 6 or 7 people standing around.. including James.. and also his parents. Me and my sister were the only females..so all the guyz were checking us out.. liek the whole time.

I met this boy named Mark and his brother Shawn...i think is his name.. they were soo super funny! omg me and Mark were crackin jokes like the whole time.. he thought I was a major blonde wahahaha =) I could tell Mark and my sister had a little thing goin on... but I wasnt 100% positive.

So after hangin out and bein silly for maybe an hour.. James announced the party was movin to this guy, Eric's apartment... Me and my sister have no idea who this person is.. soo we just follow behind Mark, Shawn, and James and on the way, they stop at Meijers.. for an alcohol run... lolz! Soo James asked me and my sister what we'd like.. drinks on him. We got some absolute vodka and cranberry juice. Yum!

After getting our liquor, we get to Eric's apartment. Btw, they brought a beer pong table, hellz ya! =) So me and my sister made ourselves some drinks and sat on the couch and watched the boyz play beer pong. These two other girls showed up when we got there as well who sat across from us, on the other side of the table. Of course these girls arent good looking as us, coz we are incredibly sexy, cant compare.. lah! They sat there and whispered while looking at us the whole time they were there.. bitches! Thankfully they didnt stay long... LOLz all the guyz were like them girlz bein bitchez coz they are soooo jealous.. lolz way too obvious.

I ended up gettin into the beer pong game, and KILLING btw.. Im too good. LOLz.... but no lie, i waz gettin tipsy drunk.. coz im a girl and a lightweight wahhaha =) Soo I went into the kitchen.. i dun remember why.. and James happened to be in there.. We started talking and flirting.. and he just grabbed me and kissed me. It waz soo sweet. I swear he haz the best kisses. Even tho I waz intoxicated.. a little bit.. during our first kiss.. it waz ah-dorable!

Well we totally hit it off.. and i dun remember how.. but he ended up getting my number. And texted me the next day.. As I said, that party was hiz going away party.. and he said that "today is my last day here.. do u wanna spend it with me?" I said yes, of course.. but soo saddening last time i'd see him for a while.. like 6 months leh. That Sunday waz honestly one of the best dayz of my life.

I had such a good time with him, i dun ever remember being that happy.. we went everywhere.. just doin silly things.. and spending time together. We went to this "Marine" store to pick up last minute thingz he needed before he left.. then we went to a Boston Market and had pizza.. we went to a Toys R Us that he worked at,, and played around with everything wahahah =) We're soo mature XD We went to hiz friends house and hung out there for a little while, and had an epic sexy make out session.. i kno lah but it waz hottttt. Then we went to the movies and seen Knowing... but we didnt watch any of it :p It waz seriousllly such a great day I couldnt stop smiling. =)

He left the day after, as he said.. and I was quite sad.. he told me hez never liked a girl as much as he liked me and said he wanted to be my boyfriend and asked if i would be his girlfriend.. I know u'd think im crazy since i've known him for such a short time..but i said yes lah! I just adored everything about him, and was liek zomg hez my soul mate, wahahaha. Soo we talked on the phone, skyped, texted, and even wrote eachother constantly... He wrote me everyday he was deployed.. omg how CUTE.. just like The Notebook. ♥♥♥

Eventually he told me that he dunch feel that itz fair for me that hez far away and im all by my lonesome.. and that he dun say we're boyfriend and girlfriend anymore coz he wanted me to live life while hez gone.. I was sad, but there waz nothing I could do. He continued to write me everyday after thiz.. so like omg so cute..

Next time I seen him, after he returned home, waz v nice. I drove up to hiz house and picked him up.. he told me he had a surprise for me to see.. mahahaha =) Btw... he dun have a car.. coz hez in the military and liek is alwayz gettin deployed and everything... So he directed me to this park, or river walk.. it waz soo cute. We held hands and walked along the river until we came across this dock. We stood at the edge and I remember him telling me I'm beautiful.... =) And I love the way he strokes his hand thru my hair... itz so sweet. We kissed on the edge of the dock and it waz sooooo romantic.

We then walked over to a dairy queen and got an ice cream and shared it.. it waz ah-dorable... it waaz soooo hot that day.. Then we went up to Westland mall.. We looked at clothes, laughed, and even 'messed around' in a dressing room :x mahahahaha =) Ahh, TMI.. sorry... So after the mall, we went to this pet store.. it had all kinds of weird animals... even SHARK pets. Then we went to a 7/11 and got a banana slurpee.. yum. Thatz liek my most favourite in the world.. lolz. Then we spent our night at Ford Drive In movie theater.

Okie, I know this iz cheeeesie... but I realllly enjoyed spending that time with him. Like he genuinely makez me happy.. and i can't ask for more than that! wahahahaha =) Hez a total doll and makez my cheeks hurt from smiling after spending a day with him! lah. Hez gorgeous, reallly nice, and great sense of humor, just like me mwahaha =).. Hez my prince charming.

I've spent alotttttt of time lately talking to him, on the phone and texting. Hez still as charming as everrr..and has all the same effects on me wahahaha! He comes home next tuesday.. so hopefully I will be able to spend some time with him and u know.... liek fall in love and get married and everythinggg.... HHAHAHAHHA!! lah. u know me. =)

And one more picture for eye candy.... lah!

Kissing: Guys VS Girls

2011-08-04T15:28:00.002-04:00

Whatz better, kissing a guy or kissing a girl? I know ur prob liek what the helll?! But I mean itz something i've been thinking of... All of us girls have gotten to the point where we kiss our best friend, mostly while drunk...lah

I dun know why... but everyone seems to LOVE that. Guyz think itz like crazy sexy when two girls have a make out session.. but i dun really see whats soo hot about it. It seems that the best way to get the attention of like everyone at a party, online, in a video.. like most views or comments is by lez action kissing girls... I mean as a chick, I dun get all turned on when 2 guyz are making out... ew.. LOLz

I lost my kissing a girl virginity to my friend Ciara. Shez like crazy adorable.. We got like soooo drunk and ended up making out most of the time in the hot tub, then the house... And that of course got like a ton of attention from the boyz, wahahahha =) I mean,
i love attention.. so itz okay.

I actually thought that our friendship would be like super reallly weird afterwards... but it hasnt really lolz. Well i dun know what she thinks.. but I dun feel all awkward around her now. I actually met her thru her boyfriend.. and he was there when we had our "night" mahahahah, but im sure he enjoyed it.. and he still talks to me as a friend after everything happened.

But down to the REAL question. For myself, whatz better, kissing a guy or a girl?

As for girls, kissing them itz softer, and much more like.. it seems more comapassionate and it feels sooo sexy. Plus i feel like i get ALLLL the attention while kissing a girl over a guy! wahahaha =)

But with men.. omg I love how agressive it iz. With a girl.. I dun know how it can get aggressive and vicious like it can with a guy. Im used to the guy taking the dominant, controlling roll and being rough with me.. I loveee that.. and becoz im not a lez.. kissing a guy totally turns me on. lolz

In conclusion!!! Kissing a guy and kisssing a girl both have their perks.. so I cant really say one is much much more superior... I have kissed people who are just AWFUL kissers..leh... but I mean overall I think females are the best kissers wahahah =) But for my own personal preference i LOVE kissing my guyz ♥

Its Over

2011-08-02T19:15:00.000-04:00

Itz officially over between me & C... yeah, I seen this coming... but it was defffinately not what I was hoping for. I knew that he would use my age against me in the long run.. but u'd think hed know or let me know that hez not into girls my age before he makes me fall in love with him... and the WORST part iz he told me hes already talking to somebody else.. what a manwhore. See he iz a perfect example of the "Man Pig"...

I dun understand why guys feel itz soo necessary to just break girls hearts.. lolz. I basically confessed my feelings to him and he uh...turned me down leh. Even tho he sorta already turned me down, but u know me... I dun give up that easy wahahahah =)

Alright, so first he ignored me for a couple days... then texted me and said "I miss you!"... So I was thinking to myself.. um did he change his mind and discovered hiz true love for me, and realized that I am hiz true love and he wants to marry me on a beach and have beautiful dark haired children with me?!?!

Not exactly.... he asked me if Im seeing someone new... REMEMBER this iz 2 days after he told me he doesnt want to be with me... I told him.. uh NO im not a dum whore lolz.... and to that he said oh.. well im talking to someone now.. LOLz... wtffff.. He got over me within 48 hours.... His whole spark with me was gone soo quickly.. I still dun understand what happened... lah.

He said if I were 2 years older he would have held onto me....

I replied:

"So basically ur saying becoz of a 2 year difference u have no care nor intention to hang onto me... lol uh okok I deff see that age is a problem with u.. I believe it just.. just wish u would have let me know much earlier..and me saying whether idk if i'd rather be in a relationship or single in college does not mean my intentions for college are totally sleeping with every guy i see and spending the majority of my time partying lolz.. u dun get me... Im going into one of the hardest majors to study itz not like i'll be a crazy college goes in the first place coz as I said school is my #1 priority.. altho it may be a problem being in a relationship while going to school coz i'll be sort of far away and ur alwayz working.. lol i'll only be free on weekends unless my job intereferes with that altho i believe its only mon-fri.. but anyways u say that people my age are not ready for a long term relationship.. idk if u should be that 100% set on it.. i dun think u understand what kinda girl i am.... ._."

He said
"I dont think u can honestly say u are ready for a long term relationship like myself."

I said:

"Okie well idk man.. i guess all i can say iz im NOT n any way wanting someone who iz just about to be fuck buddies with.. if thats what ur leading too.. i dun want that at all.. and if thats not the case and u want nothing to do with me.. just say so plain and simple i know guyz get all tongue tied trying to give an answer.. but i gave u 2 options so just tell me so i know?"

In all honesty I have more than enough people who would just LOVE to be friendz with benefits with me.. but I actually liked him and wanted a relationship.. and he kept leaning towards just wanting to hook up with me or sumthing... and no hez not getting away with being a man pig too me when I told him i liked him moar than that!!! wahahah =)

He said:
"Can we just be friends?"

I said:

"Well I dun think our friendship can last much longer.. it iz reallly sad but itz just something that cant be helped.. Im sure many many other people find u as nice as I do. U will only have so much time for "friends" of my status.. soo i'll only have 1/713 of ur time now.. and i'll probably never see u anymore... where will our friendship end? We have NO mutual friends.. so itz not like we'll see eachother that often anywayz... u dun view me as a potential girlfriend.. so u prob wont even want to hang out with me much.. and we r not CLOSE as normal friends.. so im sure u have zillions of friends who are at the same "friend" status as me.. whats 1 less? as time passes, the friendship will fade into nothingness.. a reason "to keep the friendship" is not a good reason to make an effort to keep in contact."

After this, we had a few more messages back and forth.. but it didnt feel the same. Itz officially all lost and over.. For whatever reason, he has chose to let what we had die and move on... v quickly...leh...I guess itz for the better it didnt last long or else id be much more sad lolz.... but he knew my age right off the beginning.. so i dun believe that hez told me truth as to why he no longer wishes to see me.

So if he can move on soo quickly, so can I.. lah! =) Apparently once I graduated and am now moving into college and out of my hometown... everyone findz it as a great opportunity to express their secret crush/love for me... altho I dun blame them... but what bad timing now that Im leaving...Out of all the guyz that said they totally want me.. lah... one just seems perfect.. Kevin =)

Hez adorableeee and v sweet.. now that me and C are finally at a closure... im gonna concentrate on Kevin. Need to make sum planz with him, and see where this goes! lah

Shopping at the M-DEN!

2011-08-02T17:08:00.000-04:00

Okie, so as u SHOULD know.. I am going to University of Michigan! Woot!!!!, lah. Okok.. soo football iz like a HUGE deal there, so I had to get myself a "Game Day" outfit, of course! Soo I went to the M-DEN, which iz basically a huge store filled with Michigan everything, from shirts to socks to scarves to coffee mugs, like anything u can think of.. they have lolz... But too bad itz soo damn expensive, leh.. but anyways I got 3 things... soo that I look legit at the games, since I did buy a football season package...

Okie, Herez what I got....

Fab Michigan shirt, itz like super BRIGHT in person.. This iz like crazy important coz I guess itz a MUST to wear maize at home games...like when u watch Michigan football on TV the whole crowd is wearing the same colour.. soo i HAD to get a maize shirt =)

Maize & Blue Tube socks! Super chio, rightt?!

And of course, a BEAT OHIO STATE pin =) Sorrrry, but Ohioz goin downnn.

Okie, and with all my ah-mazingggg game day gear... I decided to do sum camwhoring.... lah =)

And Lastly, the most CHIO picture!

GO BLUE!

Today has been boring...

2011-07-31T17:47:00.000-04:00

Well today was not v eventful whats so ever... and I have yet to hear back from C, =( So, no new updates on him.. I just miss hiz adorable face tho! I didn't even get to hang out with my cousin last night either!! We were "supposed" to go party, but hiz lame self blew me off, leh... Feeeeling totally worth-less at this point in time LOLz.

Today, I just been lazyz.... Did my make up realllly cute tho ^_^

Seeeeee. Luv it. ^^^^^^^^

Okie, Soo I was laying out tanning, liek alllll day.. Im rediculously pale.. naturally XD Soo trying to get some colour before thiz summer ends.... which I just realized is in exactly 1 month!! It iz already last day of July x_x

Where did all of my time go?! Lolz.... I move out on August 31, into my dorm that iz!

So me and my baby were laying out tanning most of today... If ur totally wondering who is ur baby?!?! She iz my dog! My little chihuahua! Shez liek fuckin ah-DORABLE.

Seee!!! LOLz... Ah shez tooo cute. Shez even wearing a sweater-vest in this picture!! Awwwwwhh. Okie, enough with the chihuahua...

Soo we were laying out tanning, coz she liek lovess laying out with me, she luvs the sun moar than anything! My little brother, hiz name is Boo! LOLz well not reallly... but thatz his nickname, and i swear EVERYONE calls him Boo... hiz real name is Thomas, i dont even know where boo came from.. but it stuck... and hez still boo. Hez 10 years old... so we got sorta a big difference between us.

So Boo came out and waz like talking with me.. He alwayz says I talk way too much, soo like when we're talking i'll be talking and he'll be talking at the same time.. so it alwayz gets crazy. LOLz. Sooo anywayz I was liek zOMG lets take some pictures =)

As you can see.. he doeznt realllly liek taking pictures... LOLz!

Okie so while we were sitting outside talking we noticed there waz liek this HUGE turkey vulture or something above us, so we were liek zOMG.. coz it started circling us.. I didnt reallly think anything of it tho... UNTIL I looked right over to my left and seen baby laying down like a dead animal LOLz... sorta similar to this picture I took a couple days ago...

Lolz.. that pic is soo funny.. but okok she waz laying like this right next to me.. and I realized he thinks shez a dead animal and hez gonna come and try to swoop down and get her..

My brother waz like what would u do if it came down and tried to carry her awayy?!!??

So I waz thinking about it.. and waz like

I'd probably throw my phone at it.. like in the movie "The Proposal", when the eagle picks up the puppy and Sandra Bullock throws her phone at it.. and it drops the puppy.. Lolz..

But then I waz thinking what if that didnt work?! Or what if hez too high and drops her and she fallz on the cement and diesss ._.

And my brother was liek oh dun u worry.. ur chihuahua is soo vicious she'd probably kill the huge bird anywayzzz... coz she iz pretty mean.. not to ME! but liek everyone else.. well mostly men LOLz.

So he was liek if that happens u'll just hear baby growling, then turn and look over and there will be baby sleeping right next to u, and a ginormous dead bird laying in the driveway LOLz... it waz pretty funny... we created thiz whole scenerio just in case wahahahah =)

then I have another dog, Summer...yess Im an animal person! Lolz

Thatz her... shez kinda cute lolz.. just huge... The funny thing iz, shez the total opposite of Baby. Even tho shez like twice her size... Shez scared of EVERYTHING and iz a complete WIMP! I know itz oddd, but the little chihuahua iz alwayz beating her up and bein a boss...

But my brother waz like what if a turkey vulture tried to come and take Summer!?

Mahahahah, shez like 70 lbs... I dun think a turkey vulture could even lift her an inch off the ground XD Geeze, my brother iz so silly.. he waz sincerely worried about her and ended up putting the dogz inside..

I think itz adorable seeing a male caring about sumthing soooo much, wahahahah =)

Okok well this blog entry turned out long! Lolz... Going to go enjoy the rest of the day, itz sooo beautiful out, I swear I LOVEEE summer! =)

Message from C

2011-07-30T15:13:00.000-04:00

Okay, so last night.. I got a message from C. & this iz what it said...

"I get way too involved with girls too fast and I'm pretty much at the point in my life I want to settle down.... with 1 girl. And I like you, no doubt. But be serious... I'm not trying to be mean, but you're only 18 and from experience I know at that age no ones ready. So I didn't want to be getting more attached."

=( ....Oddly enough, yesterday I just blogged about him not taking me serious becoz of my age and everything (See blog "Love Life lah"). I was quite frustrated when I received this message becoz I reallllly like C. :\ And out of frustration I quickly replied, which iz alwayz a mistake.. and said

"Well im srry my age is a great deal of an issue for u.. i guess id feel the same way in ur shoes coz most girls my age are v immature, well most everyone in general is. I guess good luck finding someone to settle down with.. sorry things didnt work out."

After waiting around for an hour.. he never replied to that. I decided to send him an email instead, so I can reallly tell him how I feel, becoz I know if I just get angry and forget about him, i'll lose him 4everr -__- & I told u, i liked him lolz.. Soo I thought about it for a while and this is what I sent him.. Itz kinda long...

Hey C,
Im sorry, I am one of those over-analyzer's... but seeing as you have yet to reply to my text.... I'm emailing you instead..
I find it a little amusing, I was just writing about u earlier today.. Lolz.. I uh.. write out/blog my thoughts.. But I thought you would care to see what I put, funny as it is the reason u wanted to stop talking with me..

"Okay I met this guy, not saying name!, and he's a total doll. I mean hez SOOO fit lah... and smart... and cute.. and nice...and perfect.
He has the cutest teeth in the world I can't get over it, chio. I love spending time with him. He always takes me out and buys me stuff, lolz. I think itz sweet. But what's the problem?

I reallllllly like him.. and I know he's not a guy that I just want to hook up with, be friends with benefits with, or just date for a couple weeks.. He's more than that.. I'm not sure if he likes me that way.. coz he's older than me.. I mean itz not absurd our age difference, but itz enough where I'm not sure how hes thinking. I feel like he's not really looking for a relationship.. But he told me if he finds the right girl..soon.. hes ready to settle down and get married. I mean yeah, he's at that age... And that's great and all but hows he feel about a girl like me being... 18. Idk if hes gonna take me serious or even consider someone "so young"... Am I crazy for liking someone who is ready for that kinda commitment?! Coz I mean I'm a young college student, should I just forget all the relationship business and go out and have fun while I still have the chance? leh
So this is what I have been thinking lately..

And on top of all these thoughts.. He does something that drives me crazy... he constantly talks about his ex's. Not just the recent one but like 3 of them. Like itz not that it matters coz theyre totally over, right?... but I mean hes alwayzzzz talking about them bringing them up, and when we hung out the other night he logged onto his ex "Amanda" or sumthing's facebook account and said he likes to go thru her stuff sumtimes.. what the hell???...We even went to this party together and, of course, his ex was there.. he basically kept looking at her the whole time once he seen her.... And not only does he constantly bring up and talk about his ex's he has little presents and toys and pictures from them allllll over his damn room. It's like disheartening in my eyes to see everytime I go over his house. On his nightstand theres even a teddy bear with his last ex's picture in the middle..like staring at me everytime I'm in his bed... creepy, right?!... Idk, I feel hes still caught up in past relationships.. so I'm a little hesitant in wanting a relationship with him now.."

Lolz make fun of me if you must :p
But I mean, I dont know why you're all ready for seriousness, as in moving in so fast with a relationship, I mean we have hung out maybe 6-10 times altogether, if that many.. I mean can u already tell that u don't like me? Coz if thats the case then, yes certainly you should break it off w/ me altogether..
I think you shouldnt set an age for your marriage that seems crazy.. For myself, if i find someone I love at merely 19 or all the way until im 40 I'd be happy, i dont ever want to get divorced. You shouldnt rush into marriage becoz of age.. But then again, just my personal opinion.
But Idk if u realize I am most definately not liek ur ex's.. I can tell just from looking at them.. No offense but u seem to have immature taste in girls, i dont kno them in any way at all.. but seeing from how they look and theyre profiles and shit.. they seem immature.. And as I said, I feel like you're still super connected w/ ur ex's.. Which is plainly obvious. But anyways, I am very business oriented... which is a huge part of why I rarely date. I don't just "like" anyone for the hell of it.. I did like you, just an fyi. Lolz... I'm not immature in any sense, I dont play games..

But i do realize in some people's eyes age in a HUGE thing to consider while dating. Its completely understandable, and i wish u the best in finding someone worth settling down for in ur standards.

-Haleigh

He was at work when I sent this.. so I knew he wouldnt reply.. But he sent me a text early this morning and said
-I read ur message
-I'll tty about it later

He sent me another message, just moments ago, saying (refering only about the ex's)..
-I'll still ttyl about the msg but...
-ex's dont mean shit to me
-Srry for the stuff in my room, im just to lazy to get rid of it.

So now Im just awaiting to hear back from him to find out what hez goin to say...leh
For now I am going to go hang out with my cousin, Jesse, I will tell u all about it laterrrr =)

The REST of my Love Life

2011-07-29T21:17:00.001-04:00

Okay now that I'm on a tangent talking about my love life let me introduce to u all of the details.

Let me tell u what I want first. I dont reallly have a type coz I mean if I liek someone for their personality and heart, looks arent all that important.. well sorta LOLz.

A Sexy body is alwayz nice... you know reallly fit with a nice butt. wahahah!! =) I like dark hair and dark eyes!! So gawwww-geouss. I like professional attire, I think the hollister look is soo immature and not cute. I absolutely LOVEEEEE funny guys, coz I mean I have a warped, wide-ranged sense of humor, and I love laughing lah. I like outspoken, opionated people, becoz I am, I have very strong beliefs and stick with them, (I'd prefer if his opinions were similar to mine lolz).

I think Drake is extreeemly sexy.. and Brad Pitt.. as u see my range varies LOLz.

My guy MUST be taller than me as well, altho that isnt so hard becoz Im quite short mahahaha. I want a guy that has plans for a future.. not saying kidz/family/whatevs.. I mean school/career wise becoz I am like that most on track, have a plan, type of person. I want him to KNOW what he wants and how hes gonna get there. Being serious about things like that iz important, but silly about everrrrrything else is fine with me! =)

And NO MAN PIGS.
Haleighs Dictionary: Man Pig- Basically describes 99.9% of all men in two words. Men who only look for sex and treat women as items. Don't care about feelings nor have any interest in developing a real relationship. When in a relationship often cheat and sleep around w/ whores like every weekend. Most women have to settle for these sad souls becoz they in all honestly include most of the male population.

Soo, in other words... I'm looking for that 0.1% men. =)

Okayz, Here's the men I am dealing with!

First of all, the guy I was talking about earlier, that is incredibly sexy and soo super chio, letz call him C. C is the guy that I have been concentrating on becoz I adore his face & I have talked about him enough, so you get his deal!

Okay, there is also D. D is liek zomg amazingly sweet. I luv everything about him and find him to be total bf material, and I am alwayz talking to him...about EVERYTHING. He's liek my bestest friend ever, like MY angel.. but no I'm gunna say hez an angel coz like zomg thats weird. He's sort of in the friend zone with me tho. And I'm in friend zone with him, soo liek totally can't work out..can it?? We left our flirting in the past.. so now we're out of chemistry lah. And since D is like a best friend for me, he knows everything about me, the cute, good, bad, and ugly o_o But on top of that... he lives soo far awayyyyzzz now. =( *SAD*

There is S. He's funny...soooo sexy lah....smart..NO not reallly... LOLz. I know thats liek mean to say, but hez not realllly. He's all looks, and that wont work for me. Altho hez a great candidate for friends with benefits! LOLz. Okay, he can get smarter.. he may even be like secret ninja smart and I just dont know it. Well actually it wont even be nearly possible coz when school starts we'll be soo damn far apart, leh. But hes SOOO damn good looking.. The bad about him tho, hez a MAJOR flirt.. like hez prolly tryin to get w/ someone right now -_- I wish I could just have him all for myself and live happpily ever after lah!!!

W. Omgz W. He's incredibly smart....handsome...and funny...and liek omg damn near perfect. He even goes to my school! So it would be great! He may think I'm crazy from how we have talked and everything but he seems to give the signs that he likes me. Altho Im a little bit crazy so he may think Im too "wild" for his taste, coz he seems to have done like NOTHING in all his 18 years of life. Hez maybe had a couple drinks, but still sheltered! We have been apart for a couple weeks or so... but he's so adorable and always has kept in touch while hez been away! I always get randomly adorable texts from him.. i luv it.

And Lastly, M. Okay M doesnt like me nor have any interest in me whatsoever. I might as well just say his name, Mike. He is like the man of my dreams! Lolz. Hez way too perfect for me anyways.. so I shouldnt be so infatuated with him, but he seems perfect for me in every way. Hes beautiful... soo smart (goes to my school)... amazing body.. amazing smile.. amazing hair and eyes.. style.. okokok let me stop before I get too hot LOLz jk. But realllly hes perfect. Parfait! Okay well I went to this party at my friend Zach's house.. and M was there to my surprise, (Ive had a crush on M since freshman year in highschool)! leh... Soo we were drinking and partying, and I noticed M eyeing me liek the whole time, and I was deff eyeing him! He called me over after a couple hours of playing beer pong.. and we started taking shots together and having fun.. soo he said omg your beautiful, do you want to go outside.. so we went outside and omgz he kissed me! So chio I cant even describe it! wahahah. I LOVED it... like my dreamz come true.. Then by the end of the night my "friend" Zach" tried to ruin my life by getting into a fight with him over ME.. and I msged M the next day, and he doesnt seem interested in me anymore... leh. There goes my hopes and dreams...
We'd have like amazingggly gorgeous children and be like a totally BEAUTIFUL married couple omg **** *poof* now its all ruined, thx to Zach. -__-

Soo, the man of my dreams doesn't like me...

Itz basically a sad case coz guys all around are totally disappointing.

Love Life lah

2011-07-29T18:56:00.000-04:00

Okay I met this guy, not saying name!, and he's a total doll. I mean hez SOOO fit lah... and smart... and cute.. and nice...and perfect.
He has the cutest teeth in the world I can't get over it, chio. I love spending time with him. He always takes me out and buys me stuff, lolz. I think itz sweet. But what's the problem?

I reallllllly like him.. and I know he's not a guy that I just want to hook up with, be friends with benefits with, or just date for a couple weeks.. I'm not sure if he likes me that way.. coz he's older than me.. I mean itz not absurd our age difference, but itz enough where I'm not sure how hes thinking. I feel like he's not really looking for a relationship.. But he told me if he finds the right girl..soon.. hes ready to settle down and get married. I mean yeah, he's at that age... And that's great and all but hows he feel about a girl like me being... 18. Idk if hes gonna take me serious or even consider someone "so young"... Am I crazy for liking someone who is ready for that kinda commitment?! Coz I mean I'm a young college student, should I just forget all the relationship business and go out and have fun while I still have the chance? leh

So this is what I have been thinking lately..

And on top of all these thoughts.. He does something that drives me crazy... he constantly talks about his ex's. Not just the recent one but like 3 of them. Like itz not that it matters coz theyre totally over, right?... but I mean hes alwayzzzz talking about them bringing them up, and when we hung out the other night he logged onto his ex "Amanda" or sumthing's facebook account and said he likes to go thru her stuff sumtimes.. what the hell???...We even went to this party together and, of course, his ex was there.. he basically kept looking at her the whole time.... And not only does he constantly bring up and talk about his ex's he has little presents and toys and pictures from them allllll over his damn room. It's like disheartening in my eyes to see everytime I go over his house. On his nightstand theres even a teddy bear with his last ex's picture in the middle..like staring at me everytime I'm in his bed... creepy, right?!... Idk, I feel hes still caught up in past relationships.. so I'm a little hesitant in wanting a relationship with him now..

But everytime I want to break it off, he asks to hang out with me again, and I totally feel all in love again! lolz, Lust...lah

Circle ♔ Lenses

2011-07-28T19:49:00.000-04:00

Today I just ordered my first pair of circle lenses from HoneyColor.com.

I am totally excited to find out how they look lah! They're designed to make your eyes look HUGE, and that's deffffffinately the look I am aiming for. They remind me of a doll or anime character, they're so chio! Itz a HUGE trend in Japan as well. But, I could not decide on a colour leh, so I ended up getting black. I have a thinggg for dark eyes =), very chio. My eye colour naturally is green, but i think with a dark outside it will look cool. There are liek soo many different options, designs, colors, and sizes to choose from. You can realllllly customize your eyez in real life. The best part? They're incredibly inexpensive! ~$20!!!!!

I ended up buying Maxiy Barbie Black

For those of u who dun know what they look like and how dramatic they are, here u go:

Introduction to Xianxi

2011-07-11T22:33:00.000-04:00

XIANXI

Hai! My name iz Haleigh (Pronounced: HAY-LEE) Bavol. Itz a french last name, so do ur best with pronounciation.. wahahah =)
I grew up in Romulus, MI and graduated from Romulus High School. I am currently attending the University of Michigan, in Ann Arbor, MI, and studying Political Science for my bachelors degree. I am hoping to eventually pursue a career in Law. I dun know what type of lawyer I want to be, but I mean, I still have time to decide. Im debating between state prosecutor and corporate lawyer...
I am very into current events, government affairs, and politicz. Besides that, I really enjoy shopping, playing video gamez lolz, and partying... I luhhhhhhve make up and beauty products! Az for video games, I play almost everything! (XBOX btw). My gamertag is haleighxo....so add me! =) I like to play Final Fantasy, WoW, CoD, Halo, Gears of War.... and much more. Well, this iz enough for an introduction, enjoy my blogs!

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